Jim and I were finally able to do our first bike ride of the season...the weather has been rainy and/or too cold forever. We had to get out early though because it's supposed to get into the 90s this afternoon and be windy. Doing your first ride of the year under those conditions would not be fun. As it was, all the rain had left the trails pretty muddy and full of gullies and puddles. So we got really dirty.
We went 17 miles, which is generally not stellar but pretty decent for a first ride of the season. Contrary to what I had thought would be the case, my legs did not seem better able to do the ride because of all my treadmill work. Really didn't seem to make much difference; perhaps it's different muscles being worked out?
There was a really cool bonus this ride (we often seem to have little 'moments' on the bike trails). This time, as we were riding along, we came upon a woman who was walking her two...llamas. Yeah, llamas! We stopped and I got to pet them (Jim wouldn't touch them). One was the color of this guy pictured here, and the other was white. They stood about 6 feet tall, and their fur was very thick and soft. It was weird to see their feet too, which have two big toes and that's it. They were tame and quite used to people.
Nice way to kick off the biking season!
Monday, May 30, 2011
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Mumonkan, Koan 16: When The Bell Tolls
Ummon said, "The world is vast and wide. Why do you put on your seven-piece robe at the sound of the bell?"
I think the bell represents something near to us - as opposed to everything else going on in the world - that we invest with importance and hence get dressed up for (i.e., I'm assuming the seven-piece robe refers to putting on your best clothes). We tend to allow ourselves to respond to things close to us based on customs or how we 'should' respond and treat them as if they are all important versus despite how meaningless it might be in the grand scheme of things.
In a way, this perspective skews our view of reality. It is unlikely that the bell being rung really signifies anything of relevance from a world wide view, so why do we assign such importance to it? There are certainly reasons why we might do this, but we should keep the larger view in mind or we could complicate our ability to see clearly.
I think the bell represents something near to us - as opposed to everything else going on in the world - that we invest with importance and hence get dressed up for (i.e., I'm assuming the seven-piece robe refers to putting on your best clothes). We tend to allow ourselves to respond to things close to us based on customs or how we 'should' respond and treat them as if they are all important versus despite how meaningless it might be in the grand scheme of things.
In a way, this perspective skews our view of reality. It is unlikely that the bell being rung really signifies anything of relevance from a world wide view, so why do we assign such importance to it? There are certainly reasons why we might do this, but we should keep the larger view in mind or we could complicate our ability to see clearly.
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Stevie Nicks - In Your Dreams
In 1973, Stevie Nicks began her career as a recording artist with the album Buckingham Nicks. That album bombed so badly, she was dropped by her label. What a far cry from her first solo album (Bella Donna) eight years later. Bella Donna hit number one, unleashed four top 40 hits, and launched her to a level of stardom reached by few rock artists: she was a member of one of rock's biggest bands and she also had a hugely successful solo career.
It's been 30 years since Bella Donna established Nicks as a force to be reckoned with in or out of Fleetwood Mac and, over the ten years since her last studio album, she seemed to be headed towards a kind of retirement: touring and releasing compilation packages. If In Your Dreams turns out to be the capstone of her career, then she's going out on a very high note. However, the album is so good that it suggests it would be a shame for Nicks to stop recording as she obviously has a lot of great music left in her. Simply put, In Your Dreams is her best album since The Wild Heart and it is the best solo effort of her career in terms of merging her mystical and rock sides.
Lyrically In Your Dreams is the most open album of Nicks' career, reminding us that Nicks is at her best when her moony mysticism and snaky incantations are married to sassy rock and roll attitude. This marriage is partly achieved by Dave Stewart's melodic and tight production. He rarely ventures into the meandering over-instrumentation that has haunted every Nicks solo album since The Wild Heart, yet he lets Nicks breath and indulge in the drama that has always formed the core of her allure. He clearly 'gets' what Stevie is all about and his production lets her be herself while deftly setting some boundaries to keep things rock and roll.
Nicks responds as she did when Jimmy Iovine pushed her this way: she gives tremendous, emotional performances. While there's no question that Nicks' voice isn't what it used to be, she seems to have accepted that her sultry vibrato is a thing of the past and is singing with what she has rather than trying to force what she used to have. I noticed this approach during her Soundstage performance as well. The result is Nicks sounds alive, energized, and happy throughout the disk, as if she's really into what she's doing and comfortable with it. In fact, I don't think she has sounded so utterly invested all the way through an album since...again, The Wild Heart.
Frankly (and I know I'm gushing now, but I've been a Stevie fan since Rumours came out when I was ten years old), In Your Dreams is the CD I have been wanting Nicks to do for decades. She's abandoned the over-production and layered instrumentation. The songs sound very direct and simple, yet the sound is still lush and full of sonic details that support the mood of the songs. As to a favorite song...sorry but I can't pick one. The songs all touch different emotions, and I love how Nicks alters her delivery for each of them. There's Nicks' always alluring overgrown romanticism ('Moonlight', 'Italian Summer'), hooky pop tunes ('Secret Love', 'New Orleans'), country twang ('For What It's Worth'), thoughtful ballads ('You May Be The One', 'Cheaper Than Free'), a dirge that verges on slowed down black metal ('Soldier's Angel'), an upbeat take on Edgar Allen Poe ('Annabel Lee'), and straight ahead rock (the title track). Even the to-be-expected loopy tracks ('Wide Sargasso Sea', 'Ghosts Are Gone') seem to work. That said, there is one song that suffers by comparison to the rest of the material: 'Everybody Loves You'. It just doesn't belong on this CD because it's clearly a Eurythmics song in need of Annie Lennox's icy cooing. Nicks hasn't got an icy note in her body, and it just sounds wrong.
As on Trouble in Shangri-La, most of the best songs are the ones Nicks writes on her own. So if I were to ding In Your Dreams, it would be for Nicks' continuing reluctance to step up the plate and write more of her own material. While I'm not crazy about her culling songs from her vaults, if she's got gems like 'Secret Love' and 'Annabel Lee' stored away, then I can't complain too much can I?
Bottom line: I have this CD in my car and just let it play over and over. I haven't given a Nicks' CD this kind of spin priority since Rock a Little. The quality and energy of this album will no doubt go down as one of the biggest surprises of the year. Nicks knocked this album out of the ballpark!
It's been 30 years since Bella Donna established Nicks as a force to be reckoned with in or out of Fleetwood Mac and, over the ten years since her last studio album, she seemed to be headed towards a kind of retirement: touring and releasing compilation packages. If In Your Dreams turns out to be the capstone of her career, then she's going out on a very high note. However, the album is so good that it suggests it would be a shame for Nicks to stop recording as she obviously has a lot of great music left in her. Simply put, In Your Dreams is her best album since The Wild Heart and it is the best solo effort of her career in terms of merging her mystical and rock sides.
Lyrically In Your Dreams is the most open album of Nicks' career, reminding us that Nicks is at her best when her moony mysticism and snaky incantations are married to sassy rock and roll attitude. This marriage is partly achieved by Dave Stewart's melodic and tight production. He rarely ventures into the meandering over-instrumentation that has haunted every Nicks solo album since The Wild Heart, yet he lets Nicks breath and indulge in the drama that has always formed the core of her allure. He clearly 'gets' what Stevie is all about and his production lets her be herself while deftly setting some boundaries to keep things rock and roll.
Nicks responds as she did when Jimmy Iovine pushed her this way: she gives tremendous, emotional performances. While there's no question that Nicks' voice isn't what it used to be, she seems to have accepted that her sultry vibrato is a thing of the past and is singing with what she has rather than trying to force what she used to have. I noticed this approach during her Soundstage performance as well. The result is Nicks sounds alive, energized, and happy throughout the disk, as if she's really into what she's doing and comfortable with it. In fact, I don't think she has sounded so utterly invested all the way through an album since...again, The Wild Heart.
Frankly (and I know I'm gushing now, but I've been a Stevie fan since Rumours came out when I was ten years old), In Your Dreams is the CD I have been wanting Nicks to do for decades. She's abandoned the over-production and layered instrumentation. The songs sound very direct and simple, yet the sound is still lush and full of sonic details that support the mood of the songs. As to a favorite song...sorry but I can't pick one. The songs all touch different emotions, and I love how Nicks alters her delivery for each of them. There's Nicks' always alluring overgrown romanticism ('Moonlight', 'Italian Summer'), hooky pop tunes ('Secret Love', 'New Orleans'), country twang ('For What It's Worth'), thoughtful ballads ('You May Be The One', 'Cheaper Than Free'), a dirge that verges on slowed down black metal ('Soldier's Angel'), an upbeat take on Edgar Allen Poe ('Annabel Lee'), and straight ahead rock (the title track). Even the to-be-expected loopy tracks ('Wide Sargasso Sea', 'Ghosts Are Gone') seem to work. That said, there is one song that suffers by comparison to the rest of the material: 'Everybody Loves You'. It just doesn't belong on this CD because it's clearly a Eurythmics song in need of Annie Lennox's icy cooing. Nicks hasn't got an icy note in her body, and it just sounds wrong.
As on Trouble in Shangri-La, most of the best songs are the ones Nicks writes on her own. So if I were to ding In Your Dreams, it would be for Nicks' continuing reluctance to step up the plate and write more of her own material. While I'm not crazy about her culling songs from her vaults, if she's got gems like 'Secret Love' and 'Annabel Lee' stored away, then I can't complain too much can I?
Bottom line: I have this CD in my car and just let it play over and over. I haven't given a Nicks' CD this kind of spin priority since Rock a Little. The quality and energy of this album will no doubt go down as one of the biggest surprises of the year. Nicks knocked this album out of the ballpark!
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Back to Hapkido?......No
This was a tough decision. I'd made a lot of progress in hapkido, and I really enjoyed it. Plus, the fitness benefits were terrific. However, between going back to the gym and cycling weather upon us, it seemed like it would be too much of one thing to continue with martial arts too.
I've mentioned on this blog several times that I've been really focused on athletic stuff for a long time, and I guess it's time to make some conscious decisions to set aside time for other interests (like painting, writing, more time for meditation, hanging out with friends, reading, etc.).
I'm going to keep practicing my forms and kicks and punches as part of my routine at the gym. So while I may not be continuing with martial arts (right now), if I can keep the skills I have sharp then nothing has been lost at all. Taking hapkido was a wonderful experience and I do miss it, but I know this is the right choice. I just don't feel it's very balanced to be so invested in fitness to the exclusion of other aspects of my life. So, instead of continuing to wring my hands about it, it's time to do something about it. Done.
I've mentioned on this blog several times that I've been really focused on athletic stuff for a long time, and I guess it's time to make some conscious decisions to set aside time for other interests (like painting, writing, more time for meditation, hanging out with friends, reading, etc.).
I'm going to keep practicing my forms and kicks and punches as part of my routine at the gym. So while I may not be continuing with martial arts (right now), if I can keep the skills I have sharp then nothing has been lost at all. Taking hapkido was a wonderful experience and I do miss it, but I know this is the right choice. I just don't feel it's very balanced to be so invested in fitness to the exclusion of other aspects of my life. So, instead of continuing to wring my hands about it, it's time to do something about it. Done.
Monday, May 23, 2011
Back to the Gym
I haven't belonged to a gym/health club/fitness center for something close to fifteen years. I always found them to be unwelcoming places with the stench of heterosexual meat market wafting in the air. However, I was not able to push through my plateau with dumbbells at home, so I began missing those machines. Plus there is a gym in my building at work...can't get more convenient than that!
I joined a gym about a month or two ago, and I have been really into it! Weirdest of all is that I have suddenly discovered the wonderful world of treadmills. I used to loathe treadmills and all their brethren (stairmasters, ellipticals, cycle machines, etc.) because I'm so used to biking outside that I could never deal with just being stationary while putting out all that energy. But for whatever reason I now enjoy my treadmill time!
If I can get off work early enough, I go down and do the treadmill while watching Judge Judy (I looove Judge Judy!). In the AM, I listen to all my old techno from the 90's: Superstar DJ Keoki, Juno Reactor, Crystal Method, Uberzone...and just go into a zone. It's almost like meditating in a way, because I clear my mind and just do it.
I'm up to about two or three times a week. 40 minutes a pop on the treadmill. And I alternate between two moderate lifting routines. I burn about 550 calories a shot on the treadmill, and I can already feel my body responding to the lifting. Now I just need to get to running on the treadmill. And maybe get a trainer for a week or two to set up a really nice lifting routine for myself.
Who knows? By this time next year, I might even look like Mr. Yummy in this picture here. No? Well, a boy can dream right?
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Back to Painting?
Years ago, I was way into painting. I took a bunch of college classes and built up a pretty good head of steam. I was painting somewhat large canvases (the one pictured is 36x30), had placed my work in some shows, and even sold a piece...to a total stranger no less! I had gotten to a place where I was trying to merge the topics I was reading about in physics and biology texts into my art and naming them things that merged the art and science, as well. This piece was called 'Deep Sea Abstract Biogenesis'...or something like that.
I stopped painting pretty abruptly about the same time I stopped writing poetry. In general, there were a bunch of years where I simply didn't do anything creative anymore. Not entirely sure why that happened. I just didn't feel the urge to produce or communicate anything, and whenever I did try I had this feeling that the stuff I was creating was 'the same old same old'.
Over the past few week, however, I've had a return of what I can only call 'artist vision'. This is how it works: I'll be going along not thinking about anything when suddenly something very random and everyday that I see suggests a painting to me or a way to visually depict something through art. So this weekend I pulled my car out of the garage, fished my easel out of the crawl-space, took an inventory of my leftover supplies, picked up a few things I needed, made the garage into a studio, and started a canvas.
I have some ideas that I want to play with, but I veered away from them and instead did a quick sketch from my imagination of a bowl of avocados (don't ask why...it's the color I'm after) with a Cubist sensibility to the composition. I decided to paint this 'still life' as a way to get back on the saddle. Of course, I quickly learned that it's not quite that easy. I laid down my first couple layers of color and then remembered there's that pesky need for the paint to dry or you end up mixing on the canvas with everything you add! This was why, when I was real active, I would have two or three paintings going on at once. I'd always get started on the next ones as I finished the current project, so that while one picture was drying I would always have something else to do.
Anyway, the first layers are down. Who knows where this will go. I've a had a few false restarts of my creative process over the years, and this may be just another one of them. I hope that this coming weekend I can get back to it and start on the actual painting. But no matter what, I really enjoyed the process of painting again: the loose brushstrokes, the smells, the look of the paint on my palette, mixing colors, and the way it flows on the canvas. I even used my palette knife to slather paint on, so no worries that I'll revert back to some really uptight process. I even (almost) enjoyed the way I somehow end up with every color I use on my fingers. I had fun!
I stopped painting pretty abruptly about the same time I stopped writing poetry. In general, there were a bunch of years where I simply didn't do anything creative anymore. Not entirely sure why that happened. I just didn't feel the urge to produce or communicate anything, and whenever I did try I had this feeling that the stuff I was creating was 'the same old same old'.
Over the past few week, however, I've had a return of what I can only call 'artist vision'. This is how it works: I'll be going along not thinking about anything when suddenly something very random and everyday that I see suggests a painting to me or a way to visually depict something through art. So this weekend I pulled my car out of the garage, fished my easel out of the crawl-space, took an inventory of my leftover supplies, picked up a few things I needed, made the garage into a studio, and started a canvas.
I have some ideas that I want to play with, but I veered away from them and instead did a quick sketch from my imagination of a bowl of avocados (don't ask why...it's the color I'm after) with a Cubist sensibility to the composition. I decided to paint this 'still life' as a way to get back on the saddle. Of course, I quickly learned that it's not quite that easy. I laid down my first couple layers of color and then remembered there's that pesky need for the paint to dry or you end up mixing on the canvas with everything you add! This was why, when I was real active, I would have two or three paintings going on at once. I'd always get started on the next ones as I finished the current project, so that while one picture was drying I would always have something else to do.
Anyway, the first layers are down. Who knows where this will go. I've a had a few false restarts of my creative process over the years, and this may be just another one of them. I hope that this coming weekend I can get back to it and start on the actual painting. But no matter what, I really enjoyed the process of painting again: the loose brushstrokes, the smells, the look of the paint on my palette, mixing colors, and the way it flows on the canvas. I even used my palette knife to slather paint on, so no worries that I'll revert back to some really uptight process. I even (almost) enjoyed the way I somehow end up with every color I use on my fingers. I had fun!
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Do Zen Buddhists Believe in God? (Part 2)
My friend Paul has been asking me questions about my recent post Do Zen Buddhists Believe In God?. Here was his latest question:
"The four noble truths of Buddhism is all about suffering. The Zen tradition follows from that? What is the purpose of Zen then? Why do it? Follow it? I'm having a hard time grasping the null response to god/religion concept. Sure, saying that god is the #1 serial killer of all time is overblown but surely you have to admit that religious belief does cause real harm and actual death to people. What would the Zen response be to murder? War? Falsehoods? Surely they would have the same response to religion?"
This question provoked a ton of thought from me, so I wanted to post the result of this thinking.....
First of all, I know very little about Buddhism. The Zen tradition flows from it, but my sense is Buddhism is much more complicated. There's all that 'four noble truths' and 'nine directions' and 'five worlds' and 'three hells' stuff, and I'd be willing to bet part of the origin of Zen was a rejection of this complexity. Second, you do not practice Zen for a reason. By practicing it, you experience reality directly, discipline your mind, understand truth, and ultimately may become enlightened. However, there is no goal, 'finish line', or set of rules. Last, since Zen is first and foremost a personal experience, I doubt there is a 'Zen' response to anything (including murder, war, or falsehood). Speaking for myself, here's my stab at what I believe about these subjects from a 'Zen perspective'.
Falsehood (i.e., lying). Lying that springs from delusion (e.g., you are pretending to be something you are not) is wrong because it necessarily takes you from the path. Beyond this, neither honesty nor lying are good or bad in and of themselves. Example: Your mother just got her hair done for a big party. She loves it and asks you how it looks. You think it's awful. Is it right to be honest or to lie?
The answer depends on the facts. If her hair is truly embarrassing and hideous and she'll make a fool of herself at the party, then you should tell her just enough truth so she gets the point without being hurt. As such, it would not be right to be totally honest and tell her she looks awful (even if it's true) and list out all the reasons why. On the other hand, if it's just your personal opinion that she looks bad and telling her this will achieve nothing more than to hurt her feelings, then it would not be compassionate to do so. This does not mean you actively lie and say she looks twenty years younger or anything like that. You answer the question so as not to hurt her, while speaking as little untruth as possible. On the other hand, some friends value you because you will give them the 'unvarnished truth no matter what'. In this case, lying - even to spare their feelings - is not compassionate and is wrong. Given all this, you see that neither honesty nor lying can always be right or wrong.
If a child hits me, I do not hit back. If an adult hits me to get past me and kill my child, I would without hesitation hit the adult back and if necessary kill them to protect my child's life. If a country does another country wrong but there is no harm, invading that country is senseless. If a country invades yours or threatens to (and is able to) destroy yours, defending yourself is necessary. Now defense can take many forms, not just overt war.
Using war when it is not the best means of self-defense is wrong. Avoiding war when it is the best means of self-defense is also wrong. Engaging in a war you cannot win is wrong (or more precisely stupid). Using a quick invasion to destroy a dangerous enemy who has attacked you is good (or more precisely intelligent). Given all this, you see that self-defense can be good or bad depending on the situation. Naturally, war is always tragic because it leads to so much death and destruction. That is why war, violence, fighting it is not the first thing a person should leap to.
Using war when it is not the best means of self-defense is wrong. Avoiding war when it is the best means of self-defense is also wrong. Engaging in a war you cannot win is wrong (or more precisely stupid). Using a quick invasion to destroy a dangerous enemy who has attacked you is good (or more precisely intelligent). Given all this, you see that self-defense can be good or bad depending on the situation. Naturally, war is always tragic because it leads to so much death and destruction. That is why war, violence, fighting it is not the first thing a person should leap to.
God/no god
Believers do not accept science as valid proof and non-believers do not accept faith as valid proof, so this debate cannot be settled beyond yourself. For me, I do not believe in god(s), but it's certainly possible I could be wrong. However, Zen Buddhist considers fretting over a question that cannot really be solved as cluttering your mind. It's delusion that just takes your from the path and solves nothing. Frankly, I think my realization that this question is irrelevant (and then clearing my mind of any quibbling around it) has propelled me forward tremendously. So you see that the existence of god is not an essential question for a Zen Buddhist to answer.
Now some people say make a second point that - even if you can't prove there is no god - that religious belief is bad because it has led to the murder of millions of people over the centuries (and other bad stuff). Therefore, we should root it out. While I most certainly believe that for many people religion becomes a delusion that keeps them from reality (and this delusion is what leads to the negative outcomes of religious belief),
I also often wonder if when religious people pray and say that god speaks to them whether they are in a form of zazen (albeit an inconsistent and not very disciplined form of it). Further, there are many people who engage in acts of kindness and generosity every day largely (and sometimes solely) because they are spurred by their religious beliefs. Religion can be a force for good or evil depending on the person, but I will say I believe people who become wrapped up in a religious belief are more likely to suffer from delusion and therefore act in negative ways because they become invested in preserving their delusions so they can avoid thinking deeply about themselves or their lives.
This was an interesting thought exercise because it made me think about how Zen gets you away from a dualistic view of the world. At bottom, demonizing religion or money or power or war is like blaming handguns for the murders people commit. It's blaming something other than ourselves for our failings. Zen Buddhism suggests to get past all that wrong thinking by getting in the moment through zazen and disciplining your mind. Truth and clarity come on their own without effort when you do this.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Friday, May 13, 2011
Haiku Thursdays
No, it's not Thursday. But it's been a while!
a spider weaves
in the gusting wind
when will I stop
a spider weaves
in the gusting wind
when will I stop
Mumonkan, Koan 15: Tozan's Sixty Blows
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| Zen Master Ummon |
Ummon asked, "Where are you from?"
"From Sato," Tozan replied.
"Where were you during the summer?"
"Well, I was at the monastery of Hozu, south of the lake."
"When did you leave there?" Ummon asked.
"On August 25" was Tozan's reply.
"I spare you sixty blows," Ummon said.
The next day Tozan came to Ummon and said, "Yesterday you said you spared me sixty blows. I beg to ask you, where was I at fault?"
"Oh, you rice bag!" shouted Ummon. "What makes you wander about, now west of the river, now south of the lake?"
Tozan thereupon came to a mighty enlightenment experience.
Fundamentally speaking, Tozan never should have left Sato. Seeking outside is wrong thinking. Sit in zazen anywhere. You have everything you need inside you, simply silence your thoughts.
Monday, May 9, 2011
Mumonkan, Koan 14: Nansen Cuts The Cat In Two
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| Zen Master Joshu |
That evening Joshu returned, and Nansen told him of the incident. Joshu took off his sandal, placed it on his head, and walked out. "If you had been there, you would have saved the cat," Nansen remarked.
Absurdity. Monks arguing over a cat is absurdity. No one could give an answer because the situation was absurd. Joshu meant this when he walked out with a sandal on his head.
This reminds me of a story someone I knew once told me about their final exam in an college Eastern Philosophy class. The final was a single essay question: "Explain a man standing on his head with a hat on each foot." Everyone in the class bent over their paper, furiously writing paragraphs. My friend wrote one sentence and, before the stunned class, walked up and turned in his paper. The professor read it, smiled, and declared that he had an "A". What did my friend write? "Explain a pregnant cow perched on a flagpole."
Absurdity and delusion cannot be explained and no 'answer' can be given about them. Don't waste your time.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Do Zen Buddhists Believe in God?
Whether I believe in god or not is an interesting question to be asked. I think the most accurate answer would be: "I don't care."
As a Zen Buddhist, I can believe in a god if I want...or not. Since it shouldn't make any difference, it's not a question I should spend any mental energy trying to resolve.
From a personal standpoint, I have been an atheist most of my life. However, my study of Zen Buddhism has taught me to feel most comfortable saying I don't know whether there is a god or not. And, further, that I do not accept that this is an important question to answer.
What I can say with some conviction is that focusing on the concept of god could be a source of delusion. A distraction, if you will. Instead of experiencing reality directly, I might be taking a 'shortcut' to truth based on what a book, preacher, or 'god' tells me. From a Zen perspective, this would be thoughtless. So belief in god could be harmful if it becomes an influential part of one's view of reality.
Zen Buddhism is not a deistic religion out to worship something; it's about disciplining the mind and experiencing truth. Since no one needs a god to do this, I would argue that Zen Buddhists must ultimately feel that the question of "Is there a god?" belongs to the same category as the question "If a tree falls in the forest and there's no one to hear it, does it make a sound?" It's an interesting question, but the answer ultimately doesn't (and shouldn't) make any difference.
Also see: Do Zen Buddhists Believe in God (Part 2)
As a Zen Buddhist, I can believe in a god if I want...or not. Since it shouldn't make any difference, it's not a question I should spend any mental energy trying to resolve.
From a personal standpoint, I have been an atheist most of my life. However, my study of Zen Buddhism has taught me to feel most comfortable saying I don't know whether there is a god or not. And, further, that I do not accept that this is an important question to answer.
What I can say with some conviction is that focusing on the concept of god could be a source of delusion. A distraction, if you will. Instead of experiencing reality directly, I might be taking a 'shortcut' to truth based on what a book, preacher, or 'god' tells me. From a Zen perspective, this would be thoughtless. So belief in god could be harmful if it becomes an influential part of one's view of reality.
Zen Buddhism is not a deistic religion out to worship something; it's about disciplining the mind and experiencing truth. Since no one needs a god to do this, I would argue that Zen Buddhists must ultimately feel that the question of "Is there a god?" belongs to the same category as the question "If a tree falls in the forest and there's no one to hear it, does it make a sound?" It's an interesting question, but the answer ultimately doesn't (and shouldn't) make any difference.
Also see: Do Zen Buddhists Believe in God (Part 2)
Sunday, May 1, 2011
Ip Man 2
I was really looking forward to Ip Man 2, as I enjoyed the first movie a lot (see Zen Throw Down review: http://zenthrowdown.blogspot.com/2010/12/ip-man.html). Unfortunately Ip Man 2 is a disappointment and a surprisingly weak film. It's a classic case of a martial arts movie getting too slick for its own good while trying to go mainstream. Ip Man 2 lacks the fights needed to appeal to fans of the genre, but it's not strong enough in plot and characterization for mainstream audiences to care.
Ip Man 2 is certainly a well-crafted flick, but I just didn't find any heart or soul in it. The fights contain far too much Matrix-esque wire-fu and some of it is so silly that it makes the film ridiculous. You can't treat it as anything other than a popcorn flick, and yet it's trying to (I think) have some kind of heart. Worse than that, there are tons of fast cuts that prevent the performers from showing off their skills, and this makes you wonder if it's all special effects. Big turn off for a genre fan.
So what about the things mainstream audiences will look for: plot, acting, characterization? Ip Man 2 doesn't deliver any of this. Donnie Yen reprises the role of Ip Man capably enough, but his sincere performance seems lost and out of place in this silly movie. It's almost as though he and his character are beside the point. His student, Lueng, was well-played and interesting, but the character is not developed and goes nowhere. His wife's pregnancy was all front and center but has nothing to do with anything. A close friend of Ip Man is homeless after taking a Japanese bullet in the head and...not sure why that's in the movie as it also goes nowhere. Sammo Hung has great presence, but his character is undefined. First, he's a Hong Kong martial arts mafioso (which is a bit silly all by itself), but then we find he's working for the Brits, but then he changes sides...sort of. Huh??? What's the point of this? The final scene with a young Bruce Lee is dorky and feels tacked on to the end of the film.
The main reason Ip Man 2 will fall flat - for any viewer - is that there is no conflict. Who or what is Ip Man fighting? First we see him trying to open a martial arts school to make ends meet. Then he comes into conflict with Hung, but since Hung's having his chain yanked by the Brits they become allies in short order. Then the rest of the movie is about a boxing match with a British boxer, which Ip Man has to take on and win because...uh, well...I'm not sure why he has to take it on or win. So there can be a big fight at the end of the movie?
I also have to say that this Western fight/match with crooked 'bosses' rigging things was done far, far better in Fearless. In that movie, if Jet Li's character didn't take the match or lost it then his school and people would be shamed. Ip Man 2 tries to mine this vein but lacks the heart and soul to can't make the sparks fly. Ong-Bak worked this angle better, too, and it wasn't even trying to nor were those fights the core of the film (except as awesome displays of skill!). In Ip Man 2, the crooked Brit police chief running the match is too poorly played and laughable to be a real villain. His arrest at the end is corny. The match itself is not very interesting, and I still don't get the 'realization' that inspired Ip Man to open the decisive can of whoop-ass at the end. Lame.
Without much martial arts action and without a central conflict or a reason to care, it's hard to find Ip Man 2 anything but empty and directionless. This undermines the impact of the fight scenes, especially since they aren't being showcased for their own sake. I walked away from the movie feeling as though its only point was to cash in on what I understand is an Ip Man phenomenon in the East. Donnie Yen lost a good deal of credibility with me on this one.
Worth renting if you're a huge Donnie Yen fan or can't live without seeing more of his Ip Man franchise. Even in that case, though, don't expect much.
Ip Man 2 is certainly a well-crafted flick, but I just didn't find any heart or soul in it. The fights contain far too much Matrix-esque wire-fu and some of it is so silly that it makes the film ridiculous. You can't treat it as anything other than a popcorn flick, and yet it's trying to (I think) have some kind of heart. Worse than that, there are tons of fast cuts that prevent the performers from showing off their skills, and this makes you wonder if it's all special effects. Big turn off for a genre fan.
So what about the things mainstream audiences will look for: plot, acting, characterization? Ip Man 2 doesn't deliver any of this. Donnie Yen reprises the role of Ip Man capably enough, but his sincere performance seems lost and out of place in this silly movie. It's almost as though he and his character are beside the point. His student, Lueng, was well-played and interesting, but the character is not developed and goes nowhere. His wife's pregnancy was all front and center but has nothing to do with anything. A close friend of Ip Man is homeless after taking a Japanese bullet in the head and...not sure why that's in the movie as it also goes nowhere. Sammo Hung has great presence, but his character is undefined. First, he's a Hong Kong martial arts mafioso (which is a bit silly all by itself), but then we find he's working for the Brits, but then he changes sides...sort of. Huh??? What's the point of this? The final scene with a young Bruce Lee is dorky and feels tacked on to the end of the film.
The main reason Ip Man 2 will fall flat - for any viewer - is that there is no conflict. Who or what is Ip Man fighting? First we see him trying to open a martial arts school to make ends meet. Then he comes into conflict with Hung, but since Hung's having his chain yanked by the Brits they become allies in short order. Then the rest of the movie is about a boxing match with a British boxer, which Ip Man has to take on and win because...uh, well...I'm not sure why he has to take it on or win. So there can be a big fight at the end of the movie?
I also have to say that this Western fight/match with crooked 'bosses' rigging things was done far, far better in Fearless. In that movie, if Jet Li's character didn't take the match or lost it then his school and people would be shamed. Ip Man 2 tries to mine this vein but lacks the heart and soul to can't make the sparks fly. Ong-Bak worked this angle better, too, and it wasn't even trying to nor were those fights the core of the film (except as awesome displays of skill!). In Ip Man 2, the crooked Brit police chief running the match is too poorly played and laughable to be a real villain. His arrest at the end is corny. The match itself is not very interesting, and I still don't get the 'realization' that inspired Ip Man to open the decisive can of whoop-ass at the end. Lame.
Without much martial arts action and without a central conflict or a reason to care, it's hard to find Ip Man 2 anything but empty and directionless. This undermines the impact of the fight scenes, especially since they aren't being showcased for their own sake. I walked away from the movie feeling as though its only point was to cash in on what I understand is an Ip Man phenomenon in the East. Donnie Yen lost a good deal of credibility with me on this one.
Worth renting if you're a huge Donnie Yen fan or can't live without seeing more of his Ip Man franchise. Even in that case, though, don't expect much.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
National Poetry Month: Wild Winds
Had to sneak in one more of my poems before the end of National Poetry Month. This one is also from my 'Learning to Stop' phase, and like many of the others was written almost exactly ten years ago. Wild Winds is one of the many poems from that time that explored the 'guy' perspective.
Wild Winds
Muddy boots
horizon in my eyes
I orphaned my grief
and ran with wild winds
to Wyoming mountains
Winter castaway
icicles in my beard
Alone with white rivers
wolves and wheeling eagles
where nothing gentle survives
Free until one morning
Spring enchanted winter
caressed the icicles
until their strength
ran like tears
I left Wyoming
before April's deep blue thunder
and ran with wild winds
to find a harsher place
where nothing gentle survives
Wild Winds
Muddy boots
horizon in my eyes
I orphaned my grief
and ran with wild winds
to Wyoming mountains
Winter castaway
icicles in my beard
Alone with white rivers
wolves and wheeling eagles
where nothing gentle survives
Free until one morning
Spring enchanted winter
caressed the icicles
until their strength
ran like tears
I left Wyoming
before April's deep blue thunder
and ran with wild winds
to find a harsher place
where nothing gentle survives
National Poetry Month: Nomads
Here's another poem from my 'Learning To Stop' phase. Even though it was two years after Jim and I bought the house together (four years into our relationship), I still had odd moments of angst about being in a relationship and having settled down in suburbia. It's not that I doubted my choices or the direction my life was going; I knew it was the best thing that had ever happened to me. It was just such a vast change to go from being an individual to being part of a couple, that there were psychic aftershocks for a long time as the tectonic plates of my life adjusted to the shift.
This has got to be a very common feeling, especially for men. Of course, we're not supposed to talk about it. Straight men in particular probably have to bury this stuff, because I question whether many women - despite their gender's PR spin about being more communicative about their feelings - could really handle hearing a man express doubts about being with them. I wonder if one reason relationships fall apart in the first several years is that people ignore these feelings, never 'rethink' themselves, reassess their lives, and never find a way to get comfortable with themselves again after they enter a relationship. For me, Nomads captures the feelings I had during one of those aftershock moments. Of course, as the poem makes clear, I had no real answers for myself in the moment.
Nomads
O Love,
you are salvation balm!
But I see you
tame the wilderness
and wear the stone smooth
And I’ve seen:
sailors done with the sea,
gypsies at hearthstones,
knights with hung shields—
content yet restless
I trust myself
to Love’s steady mast,
sailing by strange stars,
compassless
for a time.
This has got to be a very common feeling, especially for men. Of course, we're not supposed to talk about it. Straight men in particular probably have to bury this stuff, because I question whether many women - despite their gender's PR spin about being more communicative about their feelings - could really handle hearing a man express doubts about being with them. I wonder if one reason relationships fall apart in the first several years is that people ignore these feelings, never 'rethink' themselves, reassess their lives, and never find a way to get comfortable with themselves again after they enter a relationship. For me, Nomads captures the feelings I had during one of those aftershock moments. Of course, as the poem makes clear, I had no real answers for myself in the moment.
Nomads
O Love,
you are salvation balm!
But I see you
tame the wilderness
and wear the stone smooth
And I’ve seen:
sailors done with the sea,
gypsies at hearthstones,
knights with hung shields—
content yet restless
I trust myself
to Love’s steady mast,
sailing by strange stars,
compassless
for a time.
Saturday, April 23, 2011
Enter The Dragon
I had shied away from watching martial arts movies from the 70s because they always looked a bit too cheesy. But a friend told me I had to watch Enter The Dragon. So onto the Netflix queue it went.
No doubt there is a lot of cheese here, largely because the movie so clearly shows its date. The "70's mandude" swagger will make you roll your eyes more than once. The music is all over the place; one minute its like bad James Bond spy music and then the next it sounds like something from Shaft. The audio track stinks and makes it seem like you're watching dubbed foreign film when the whole thing is actually shot in English. John Saxon for me is always a Rashid Ahmed from Dynasty. Lame acting, weird clothes and hair, a thoroughly ridiculous story, and a silly villain.
That's a lot to look past, but this movie does a great job serving up some really sweet fights. No question about it! The rough cinematography actually works in favor of the film as there are some scenes where you totally feel the power Bruce Lee brought to the table. I knew Lee was big into fitness but holy crapballs! This guy has a V-back I would die to have, and he ripples every time he moves! His skills are presented in amazing clarity, and it makes me understand why Bruce Lee fans object to the slicker cinematography of today (even the stuff that I don't see as slick must seem like it is to them). A roughly shot movie like this further emphasizes that slick studio magic tends to dull the edge of a martial arts movie.
From what I understand, Lee had a lot of control over this film, and I can see it in the way there are pieces of martial arts philosophy lovingly worked into it. Apparently, this new release has re-inserted these scenes as - back in the day - some movie studio douchebag cut them from the film after Lee's death and prior to the initial release. Brilliant decision to put them back in. I just do not get why this material seems to offend the US movie industry so much. Even today, such material is routinely cut from foreign movies for US release. It deadens the spirit of the film to not have it.
So, okay yes, there is a lot about this movie that is dated. No, I can't quite get past the high pitched 'whooo-ahhh!' that Lee lets loose when he's fighting sometimes. Yes, there were times I was watching the story and thinking "WTF?". But I really can't imagine any fan of the genre not being satisfied by Enter The Dragon. The spirit of the martial arts is definitely here, Lee's presence is awesome and smashes through all issues you might have, and his skills are so strong that you can easily see why he became such an iconic figure. I enjoyed this movie quite a bit, and I would consider checking out some of his other films which is surprising given my feelings about these films going into Enter The Dragon. I think I'd even consider buying a copy for my martial arts movie collection.
RIP Bruce Lee
No doubt there is a lot of cheese here, largely because the movie so clearly shows its date. The "70's mandude" swagger will make you roll your eyes more than once. The music is all over the place; one minute its like bad James Bond spy music and then the next it sounds like something from Shaft. The audio track stinks and makes it seem like you're watching dubbed foreign film when the whole thing is actually shot in English. John Saxon for me is always a Rashid Ahmed from Dynasty. Lame acting, weird clothes and hair, a thoroughly ridiculous story, and a silly villain.
That's a lot to look past, but this movie does a great job serving up some really sweet fights. No question about it! The rough cinematography actually works in favor of the film as there are some scenes where you totally feel the power Bruce Lee brought to the table. I knew Lee was big into fitness but holy crapballs! This guy has a V-back I would die to have, and he ripples every time he moves! His skills are presented in amazing clarity, and it makes me understand why Bruce Lee fans object to the slicker cinematography of today (even the stuff that I don't see as slick must seem like it is to them). A roughly shot movie like this further emphasizes that slick studio magic tends to dull the edge of a martial arts movie.
From what I understand, Lee had a lot of control over this film, and I can see it in the way there are pieces of martial arts philosophy lovingly worked into it. Apparently, this new release has re-inserted these scenes as - back in the day - some movie studio douchebag cut them from the film after Lee's death and prior to the initial release. Brilliant decision to put them back in. I just do not get why this material seems to offend the US movie industry so much. Even today, such material is routinely cut from foreign movies for US release. It deadens the spirit of the film to not have it.
So, okay yes, there is a lot about this movie that is dated. No, I can't quite get past the high pitched 'whooo-ahhh!' that Lee lets loose when he's fighting sometimes. Yes, there were times I was watching the story and thinking "WTF?". But I really can't imagine any fan of the genre not being satisfied by Enter The Dragon. The spirit of the martial arts is definitely here, Lee's presence is awesome and smashes through all issues you might have, and his skills are so strong that you can easily see why he became such an iconic figure. I enjoyed this movie quite a bit, and I would consider checking out some of his other films which is surprising given my feelings about these films going into Enter The Dragon. I think I'd even consider buying a copy for my martial arts movie collection.
RIP Bruce Lee
Friday, April 22, 2011
National Poetry Month: Ghosts
This poem is also part of my 'Learning To Stop' phase. Ghosts was the first time I was able to write a poem about something I had felt many times over the years, something that I think most artists feel at one point or another. There are times where I would have all this incredible creativity just flowing out of me like a fountain. I wasn't trying to be uber creative, and yet paintings, writing, and/or whatever would just flow out of me without any effort and it was all really good. At those times, you sort of step back from yourself and ask: "Where is all this coming from???" It's exciting and rewarding, but it's also a little freaky at times and I always loved to ascribe something supernatural to it.
Ghosts
And the Fall returns—
a guide not a friend.
Chill night winds
cross over into day
rousing spiders
and dead leaves.
I write verse
like a spell caster.
In the late afternoon
voices whisper secrets
on slanted sunlight,
lulling trees to sleep.
I greet each moon
without blank canvases.
These days flutter by—
pages in a book of shadows
crowded with fresh letters,
poetry, and paintings—
ghosts given form.
Am I speaking
or spoken through?
Ghosts
And the Fall returns—
a guide not a friend.
Chill night winds
cross over into day
rousing spiders
and dead leaves.
I write verse
like a spell caster.
In the late afternoon
voices whisper secrets
on slanted sunlight,
lulling trees to sleep.
I greet each moon
without blank canvases.
These days flutter by—
pages in a book of shadows
crowded with fresh letters,
poetry, and paintings—
ghosts given form.
Am I speaking
or spoken through?
Thursday, April 21, 2011
Cayman Islands: Post 2 (Stingray City)
Aside from our snorkeling adventures (more on those in another post), Jim and I went to Stingray City. Of course, we went at a time when all the cruise ship passengers couldn't go because they had to be back on their ships. That meant a lot less people! They take you way out to the barrier reef, where there is a sandbar that you can stand on and be about waist deep in water. They provide some bait squid that you can hold in your hand, and the rays come over your hand and suck the food up like vacuum cleaners!
They are so smooth and soft, and they act like aquatic versions of cats. Consider: they only come to you if they think you have food for them and then they bump and rub against you. The only thing missing was a purr. They also have yellowish eyes like some cats, although ray eyes are alien-looking. In fact, rays (and octopus) are like earth aliens to me...creatures that live on our planet but are so different looking that they could pass for aliens. We held them, fed them, petted them, and even kissed them. Here are a few pics of our Stingray City visit; we're actually holding the rays in our arms...fantastic!
They are so smooth and soft, and they act like aquatic versions of cats. Consider: they only come to you if they think you have food for them and then they bump and rub against you. The only thing missing was a purr. They also have yellowish eyes like some cats, although ray eyes are alien-looking. In fact, rays (and octopus) are like earth aliens to me...creatures that live on our planet but are so different looking that they could pass for aliens. We held them, fed them, petted them, and even kissed them. Here are a few pics of our Stingray City visit; we're actually holding the rays in our arms...fantastic!
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
Kung-Fu Master
I read some reviews on Amazon that suggest this movie is actually a TV show or mini-series that has been spliced together for release into a 95 minute movie, and that makes a lot of sense after watching this. Kung-Fu Master is no piece of art, as a movie or as a genre entry. Dou Xiao's direction is incredibly poor, and the martial arts are a curious mix of actual skill, badly done (and silly) wire-fu, and cut aways evincing incredibly bad editing. While a plot can be thin in this genre, it should be at least serviceable. This movie has no discernible plot, and the end makes zero sense.
What's good about it? Well, Kung-Fu Master has some excellent distance shots of some of the fights that incorporate several combatants at once. Most of these sequences involve fights with javelins or sticks. There's also (I think?) some good effort displayed by star Yuen Biao, but the wire-fu and endless cuts always make you question whether it's real or completely choreographed.
It almost seems as though the movie is trying to be a modern day version of one of those cheesy chop-socky movies from the 70s, but I can't quite believe the people behind Kung-Fu Master had that much vision. I got the movie dirt cheap at a close-out sale for a Blockbuster Video store. And that's about all I can recommend you expend for it. Poor.
What's good about it? Well, Kung-Fu Master has some excellent distance shots of some of the fights that incorporate several combatants at once. Most of these sequences involve fights with javelins or sticks. There's also (I think?) some good effort displayed by star Yuen Biao, but the wire-fu and endless cuts always make you question whether it's real or completely choreographed.
It almost seems as though the movie is trying to be a modern day version of one of those cheesy chop-socky movies from the 70s, but I can't quite believe the people behind Kung-Fu Master had that much vision. I got the movie dirt cheap at a close-out sale for a Blockbuster Video store. And that's about all I can recommend you expend for it. Poor.
Monday, April 18, 2011
National Poetry Month: "Thanatopsis" by William Cullen Bryant
One of my favorite poems of all time! A masterpiece of transcendentalism by a great American poet who seems to have fallen into relative obscurity, Bryant wrote this in 1812 at the age of 18. Pretty amazing! The title has been interpreted as meaning 'a meditation on death'.
Thanatopsis
To him who in the love of Nature holds
Communion with her visible forms, she speaks
A various language; for his gayer hours
She has a voice of gladness, and a smile
And eloquence of beauty, and she glides
Into his darker musings, with a mild
And healing sympathy, that steals away
Their sharpness, ere he is aware. When thoughts
Of the last bitter hour come like a blight
Over thy spirit, and sad images
Of the stern agony, and shroud, and pall,
And breathless darkness, and the narrow house,
Make thee to shudder, and grow sick at heart; -
Go forth, under the open sky, and list
To Nature's teachings, while from all around -
Earth and her waters, and the depths of air -
Comes a still voice - Yet a few days, and thee
The all-beholding sun shall see no more
In all his course; nor yet in the cold ground,
Where thy pale form was laid, with many tears,
Nor in the embrace of ocean, shall exist
Thy image. Earth, that nourished thee, shall claim
Thy growth, to be resolved to earth again,
And, lost each human trace, surrendering up
Thine individual being, shalt though go
To mix for ever with the elements,
To be a brother to the insensible rock
And to the sluggish clod, which the rude swain
Turns with his share, and treads upon. The oak
Shall send his roots abroad, and pierce thy mould.
Yet not to thine eternal resting-place
Shalt thou retire alone, nor couldst thou wish
Couch more magnificent. Thou shalt lie down
With patriarchs of the infant world - with kings,
The powerful of the earth - the wise, the good,
Fair forms, and hoary seers of ages past,
All in one mighty sepulchre. The hills
Rock-ribbed and ancient as the sun, - the vales
Stretching in pensive quietness between;
The venerable woods - rivers that move
In majesty, and the complaining brooks
That make the meadows green; and, poured round all,
Old Ocean's gray and melancholy waste, -
Are but the solemn decorations all
Of the great tomb of man. The golden sun,
The planets, all the infinite host of heaven,
Are shining on the sad abodes of death,
Through the still lapse of ages. All that tread
The globe are but a handful to the tribes
That slumber in its bosom. - Take the wings
Of morning, pierce the Barcan wilderness,
Or lose thyself in the continuous woods
Where rolls the Oregon, and hears no sound,
Save his own dashings - yet the dead are there:
And millions in those solitudes, since first
The flight of years began, have laid them down
In their last sleep - the dead reign there alone.
So shalt thou rest, and what if thou withdraw
In silence from the living, and no friend
Take note of thy departure? All that breathe
Will share thy destiny. The gay will laugh
When thou art gone, the solemn brood of care
Plod on, and each one as before will chase
His favorite phantom; yet all these shall leave
Their mirth and their employments, and shall come
And make their bed with thee. As the long train
Of ages glide away, the sons of men,
The youth in life's green spring, and he who goes
In the full strength of years, matron and maid,
The speechless babe, and the gray-headed man -
Shall one by one be gathered to thy side,
By those who in their turn shall follow them.
So live, that when thy summons comes to join
The innumerable caravan, which moves
To that mysterious realm, where each shall take
His chamber in the silent halls of death,
Thou go not, like the quarry slave at night,
Scourged to his dungeon, but, sustained and soothed
By an unfaltering trust, approach thy grave,
Like one who wraps the drapery of his couch
About him, and lies down to pleasant dreams.
Thanatopsis
To him who in the love of Nature holds
Communion with her visible forms, she speaks
A various language; for his gayer hours
She has a voice of gladness, and a smile
And eloquence of beauty, and she glides
Into his darker musings, with a mild
And healing sympathy, that steals away
Their sharpness, ere he is aware. When thoughts
Of the last bitter hour come like a blight
Over thy spirit, and sad images
Of the stern agony, and shroud, and pall,
And breathless darkness, and the narrow house,
Make thee to shudder, and grow sick at heart; -
Go forth, under the open sky, and list
To Nature's teachings, while from all around -
Earth and her waters, and the depths of air -
Comes a still voice - Yet a few days, and thee
The all-beholding sun shall see no more
In all his course; nor yet in the cold ground,
Where thy pale form was laid, with many tears,
Nor in the embrace of ocean, shall exist
Thy image. Earth, that nourished thee, shall claim
Thy growth, to be resolved to earth again,
And, lost each human trace, surrendering up
Thine individual being, shalt though go
To mix for ever with the elements,
To be a brother to the insensible rock
And to the sluggish clod, which the rude swain
Turns with his share, and treads upon. The oak
Shall send his roots abroad, and pierce thy mould.
Yet not to thine eternal resting-place
Shalt thou retire alone, nor couldst thou wish
Couch more magnificent. Thou shalt lie down
With patriarchs of the infant world - with kings,
The powerful of the earth - the wise, the good,
Fair forms, and hoary seers of ages past,
All in one mighty sepulchre. The hills
Rock-ribbed and ancient as the sun, - the vales
Stretching in pensive quietness between;
The venerable woods - rivers that move
In majesty, and the complaining brooks
That make the meadows green; and, poured round all,
Old Ocean's gray and melancholy waste, -
Are but the solemn decorations all
Of the great tomb of man. The golden sun,
The planets, all the infinite host of heaven,
Are shining on the sad abodes of death,
Through the still lapse of ages. All that tread
The globe are but a handful to the tribes
That slumber in its bosom. - Take the wings
Of morning, pierce the Barcan wilderness,
Or lose thyself in the continuous woods
Where rolls the Oregon, and hears no sound,
Save his own dashings - yet the dead are there:
And millions in those solitudes, since first
The flight of years began, have laid them down
In their last sleep - the dead reign there alone.
So shalt thou rest, and what if thou withdraw
In silence from the living, and no friend
Take note of thy departure? All that breathe
Will share thy destiny. The gay will laugh
When thou art gone, the solemn brood of care
Plod on, and each one as before will chase
His favorite phantom; yet all these shall leave
Their mirth and their employments, and shall come
And make their bed with thee. As the long train
Of ages glide away, the sons of men,
The youth in life's green spring, and he who goes
In the full strength of years, matron and maid,
The speechless babe, and the gray-headed man -
Shall one by one be gathered to thy side,
By those who in their turn shall follow them.
So live, that when thy summons comes to join
The innumerable caravan, which moves
To that mysterious realm, where each shall take
His chamber in the silent halls of death,
Thou go not, like the quarry slave at night,
Scourged to his dungeon, but, sustained and soothed
By an unfaltering trust, approach thy grave,
Like one who wraps the drapery of his couch
About him, and lies down to pleasant dreams.
Sunday, April 17, 2011
Grand Cayman: Post 1
First off, I had some real fun driving in Grand Cayman because our rental car had the steering wheel on the right hand side of the car. So between than and driving on the left, it was really fun. Every time I went to signal a turn, I switched on my windshield wipers instead. Never really got that down.
The condo we stayed at was right on the beach (see pic below for the view from the back door!). Since the who condo seemed pretty dead, we had the cabana right out back all to ourselves with really no issue or worry. From there it was a couple steps to the ocean and fantastic snorkeling.
The cabana is where we spent most of our time. We woke early, walked on the beach, ate, sunned, snorkeled, sunned, napped, ate, sunned, snorkeled, napped, ate, watched the sunset, and slept. That was pretty much the program for the majority of the week. It was a very relaxing trip!
The condo we stayed at was right on the beach (see pic below for the view from the back door!). Since the who condo seemed pretty dead, we had the cabana right out back all to ourselves with really no issue or worry. From there it was a couple steps to the ocean and fantastic snorkeling.
The cabana is where we spent most of our time. We woke early, walked on the beach, ate, sunned, snorkeled, sunned, napped, ate, sunned, snorkeled, napped, ate, watched the sunset, and slept. That was pretty much the program for the majority of the week. It was a very relaxing trip!
Saturday, April 16, 2011
National Poetry Week: The Secret Place
Another poem with structure. This one was completed almost exactly ten years ago (4/23/01) and - like Memories of Waves - is part of the group of poems I refer to as the Learning To Stop poems. Part of what I was after with these poems was a tonality that was calmer, lighter, and more nature-themed (I had moved to the burbs with the trees, big backyard, and Jim's garden only a couple years prior). This group of poems was all finding silence and piece of mind within a relationship after the whirl of single life in the big city.
The Secret Place
The secret place
unfolds like spring flowers
leading me away
footsteps in the wind
dream woven powers
And when people ask,
it's gone without a trace
I never remember
what I was thinking
in the secret place
The morning breeze
feels pale green
and the wet earth
smells of growing things
from a garden unseen
I love you, this world,
and your real embrace
but I fall asleep
to return to you
from the secret place.
The Secret Place
The secret place
unfolds like spring flowers
leading me away
footsteps in the wind
dream woven powers
And when people ask,
it's gone without a trace
I never remember
what I was thinking
in the secret place
The morning breeze
feels pale green
and the wet earth
smells of growing things
from a garden unseen
I love you, this world,
and your real embrace
but I fall asleep
to return to you
from the secret place.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Grand Cayman
We've come back from Grand Cayman but, since I didn't bother with journal entries, I will need to sort out my thoughts before posting any details. The Cayman Islands are a British Territory, but the feel of the islands is 100% Caribbean. We spent a week on Grand Cayman, a bit north of the popular 7 Mile Beach area. We prefer to be away from the crowds, especially for a trip like this where we were all about kicking back and relaxing.
Even with that in mind we hit the island at a perfect time. We often had the beach entirely to ourselves! Sometimes, the ocean outside the condo was left to us as well. The back door of our condo unit opened right onto the beach, and there was great snorkeling right off the beach. There was a 'reef' of sorts, but we're debating whether its a reef that has died or a reef that was struck down by a hurricane or something and is making a comeback. Either way, the snorkeling was very good. The concentration of critters doesn't match other places we've snorkeled (St. John, Hawaii), but the variety of what we saw was impressive.
So the weather was fantastic, we were well away from the cruise ship grounds, we had easy access to great snorkeling, and it seemed as though we'd hit a true 'lull' in the level of visitors. The last day we were there saw an influx of check-ins. Still wasn't anywhere near crowded, but we're glad we had so much time to 'own' the beach and ocean.
More posts to come.
Even with that in mind we hit the island at a perfect time. We often had the beach entirely to ourselves! Sometimes, the ocean outside the condo was left to us as well. The back door of our condo unit opened right onto the beach, and there was great snorkeling right off the beach. There was a 'reef' of sorts, but we're debating whether its a reef that has died or a reef that was struck down by a hurricane or something and is making a comeback. Either way, the snorkeling was very good. The concentration of critters doesn't match other places we've snorkeled (St. John, Hawaii), but the variety of what we saw was impressive.
So the weather was fantastic, we were well away from the cruise ship grounds, we had easy access to great snorkeling, and it seemed as though we'd hit a true 'lull' in the level of visitors. The last day we were there saw an influx of check-ins. Still wasn't anywhere near crowded, but we're glad we had so much time to 'own' the beach and ocean.
More posts to come.
Thursday, April 14, 2011
National Poetry Month: Free Spirit
Sometimes I just like to write straightforward, old school verse...all with rhymes and stuff. It has an immediacy that can be bracing. Wrote this back in 1999/2000, when I was taking my first tentative steps into my Zen studies. It's from what I call my 'Garden of Mountains' phase.
Free Spirit
Take it as a given
You see another place
Different eyes
different mind
another time and space
When others run
you meditate within
Secret symbols
the path you’re on
You’re really flying like the wind
They’ll never understand
You’ll somehow be alone
Hearts you hold
souls you watch fly
eyes fixed upon the vast unknown
So take it as a given
and do as you will
Freedom fighter
painter-poet
do not stop until
Free Spirit
Take it as a given
You see another place
Different eyes
different mind
another time and space
When others run
you meditate within
Secret symbols
the path you’re on
You’re really flying like the wind
They’ll never understand
You’ll somehow be alone
Hearts you hold
souls you watch fly
eyes fixed upon the vast unknown
So take it as a given
and do as you will
Freedom fighter
painter-poet
do not stop until
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
National Poetry Month: Memories Of Waves
I wrote this one in Mexico while staying by the beach. Thought it would be appropriate given the recent trip to Grand Caymen. I'll be posting about the trip once I get the pics organized.
Memories Of Waves
Immortal Ocean,
lazy lover
letting my Earth
turn to deep space—
a Hunter’s realm.
In darkness,
I dreamt of His
aqua turquoise beard
tickling my feet
as I wrote
“forever”
in the sand.
The Dog Star howls
and I’m awake
with dying stars—
the waves
erased
my letters
before
any
word
formed.
Memories Of Waves
Immortal Ocean,
lazy lover
letting my Earth
turn to deep space—
a Hunter’s realm.
In darkness,
I dreamt of His
aqua turquoise beard
tickling my feet
as I wrote
“forever”
in the sand.
The Dog Star howls
and I’m awake
with dying stars—
the waves
erased
my letters
before
any
word
formed.
Tuesday, April 12, 2011
National Poetry Month: Clown Among Night Flowers
Clown Among Night Flowers
crumpled newspaper
of crimson laughter
haunting city streets
yellow piano bar signs
flutter like fields
of neon flowers
form is
everywhere
the man with
loosened tie
and tired eyes
the dirty feet
of souls wasting
time
the on-duty
light of a taxi
swishing by
saxophone song pretzels
exhale sensually
and a crumpled newspaper
fills
like a sail
and
flies
away.
Monday, April 11, 2011
National Poetry Month: Flowing Inside The Lines
One of my friends on Facebook reminded me April has been designated as National Poetry Month, so since my writing has been rather limited lately (mainly to the haiku I've been posting), I'm going to raid my vaults and post some of poetry from the past during the month. This first posting is from four or five years ago. If I recall correctly, I wrote it just before "The Ancient Elm" cycle blew up (you can link to the cycle in the 'Topics' section at the left of the blog). This poem is one of the seeds that kind of got that whole cycle thing going.
Flowing Inside The Lines
No lines!
No lines!
Do not buy a journal with lines!
Regimented
My flow gets regimented
Chastised before born
The teacher demanding
I color INSIDE THE LINES!
Structuring my mind
to see lines
to see limits
to see
inside
outside
here
there
us
them
categorizing with right and wrong
I spend the rest of my life
trying to free my mind,
turning rainbows
back into pure light
rolling stone tablets
back up the mount
(thanks but no thanks)
I do not need lines
I do not need lines
when
if I let myself
I can have…
SPACE
Flowing Inside The Lines
No lines!
No lines!
Do not buy a journal with lines!
Regimented
My flow gets regimented
Chastised before born
The teacher demanding
I color INSIDE THE LINES!
Structuring my mind
to see lines
to see limits
to see
inside
outside
here
there
us
them
categorizing with right and wrong
I spend the rest of my life
trying to free my mind,
turning rainbows
back into pure light
rolling stone tablets
back up the mount
(thanks but no thanks)
I do not need lines
I do not need lines
when
if I let myself
I can have…
SPACE
Sunday, April 10, 2011
Ordinary Mind Is The Way & Everyday Zen
In ancient Zen literature there is a saying: 'ordinary mind is the way'. For me, this reflects the idea that Zen is not about mysticism or altered states of mind or seeking. Zen is about tapping into what is already inside of us, and it's something anyone can do at anytime of the day: while meditating, while folding laundry, while pitching business to clients, whenever.
In fact, I believe that one of the hallmarks of an enlightened person is that the mind state they achieve in samadhi becomes something they experience constantly in their everyday life. I call this 'Everyday Zen'. A person like this has so thoroughly disciplined their mind that they are in control 24/7. Such a person would be alert, attentive, unshakably calm, positive, balanced, focused yet detached, very quick of mind but slow to react, extremely patient, and happy in an understated way. While attaining Everyday Zen is not my goal with Zen, it is something I hope to achieve as a wonderful side-effect.
I've been able to attain Everyday Zen for short periods of time (we're talking a few hours and usually when there are few distractions). However, the challenge would be to keep Everyday Zen going regardless of what is happening around me. This is why I reject the idea that zazen should be done in a quiet place or when you're burning incense or chanting 'om' or a mantra. These things are fine if they help, but only if the person using them is fully aware that they are utterly inessential and mean nothing. I believe I should be able to go into zazen and reach samadhi while sitting at my zen table, while sitting in an airport waiting for a plane, or in a room with loud terrible music blasting away. This is the a sign of a disciplined mind.
In fact, I believe that one of the hallmarks of an enlightened person is that the mind state they achieve in samadhi becomes something they experience constantly in their everyday life. I call this 'Everyday Zen'. A person like this has so thoroughly disciplined their mind that they are in control 24/7. Such a person would be alert, attentive, unshakably calm, positive, balanced, focused yet detached, very quick of mind but slow to react, extremely patient, and happy in an understated way. While attaining Everyday Zen is not my goal with Zen, it is something I hope to achieve as a wonderful side-effect.
I've been able to attain Everyday Zen for short periods of time (we're talking a few hours and usually when there are few distractions). However, the challenge would be to keep Everyday Zen going regardless of what is happening around me. This is why I reject the idea that zazen should be done in a quiet place or when you're burning incense or chanting 'om' or a mantra. These things are fine if they help, but only if the person using them is fully aware that they are utterly inessential and mean nothing. I believe I should be able to go into zazen and reach samadhi while sitting at my zen table, while sitting in an airport waiting for a plane, or in a room with loud terrible music blasting away. This is the a sign of a disciplined mind.
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Scottsdale, AZ
I'm on business trip at a conference. We've been put up at a fabulous resort, and I'm on a break right now. During the rare breaks, I've taken to coming out on a terrace to sit and watch the sunset. The sky is totally clear, and I can see mountains along the horizon. It's beautiful, warm, and very peaceful. Heading home tomorrow.
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